Birthdays

The reason im writing this is because i cant sleep and i keep on forgetting dates,
I mean I remember birthday's like if you ask me who's birthday is it today ill have a think and remember
Because sometimes so many times i plan myself the day before or days before, that i'll wake up at midnight to say Happy Birthday
To special people really
I am writing this too because i just forgot what day it was yesterday and i feel like shit
I mean we are just friends but i feel shit because we're not just friends
We moved on also to our lives
But you cant move the past that was once special
I get shit from so many people and the only person who stayed with me was her
Helped me through a lot of shitness
That's something i appreciate so much from her
Im a person who never forgets people who helped me in life and she is one of them
I even have a list i still remember who i will help first once i get successful
Im sorry guys im forgetful, but clearly i dont forget peoples birthday, if i know your birthday once then i'll know and will answer when is your birthday...
Okay that's it from me...
Bye